I had thought that my first post of 2017 would have been upbeat and fun, but life has a very different idea for this blog.
I’m going to hit you with a trigger warning now because the seas get real dark and stormy from here on out.
Basically I hit a low and things got so bad that I ended up in a psych ward for 3 days.
The husband was away overseas for work and I had been struggling on my own for some time. I had a lot of help and I’m very lucky in that regard, but I kept a lot to myself in an attempt not to be a burden on everyone. I get paranoid about how much stress/pressure I would be putting on them, everyone I am close to has kids and/or full time jobs. They don’t need to be worrying about me and my problems.
The navy worked pretty quickly once they heard about the situation and got The husband home so he can be here for the Gremlin while I figure shit out, if all goes well he will head back out some time in February.
On Monday I will start a 4 week program at a mental health unit, I will have to do group program stuff and a whole bunch of other things. Right now I’m hopeful that it will work, but I’m pretty wrecked right now.
Ain’t life grand.